Anger......

I am not an angry person, so when anger gets thrown my way the only way I know how to react is to cry. I cant yell back or be angry back! I understand that my family is going thru so much right now and the only way for people to deal with grief is to YELL and be ANGRY!

I just have to keep telling myself that no one is angry with me per say, but angry with the situation. Angry with death... Even though death is a part of life, no one knows how to cope with it.. We all have to cope in our own ways.. Some yell and some cry..

I just keep telling myself, this to shall pass...

I know my Grandpa wouldn't want all this bickering and hatefulness, So I will just take it all in and hope it all passes soon..

My grandfather is in surgery as I type, hes having a skin graph done and it should take about three hours! His chances of surviving is 50-50..

Please pray for my family, please pray for my grandpa, please pray for the anger and that it will soon be gone!

I am not ready to say goodbye...

My Grandpa is really sick, hes been in ICU for 2 weeks.. He is in kidney failure, heart failure and his lungs keep retaining fluid. On top of all of this, a week ago he started swelling from his waist down. They said he was in toxic shock and had to do emergency surgery to remove gangrene.. It was life or death.. He almost died on the operating table, it took alot to keep him alive. He just came off the breathing tube this past weekend. He said he knows he is dying and he sees the light, he said he is ready to go!

My grandpa has to have another surgery, it was supposed to be tomorrow but hes not strong enough for the surgery right now..

Please continue to pray for my grandpa and my family. I wish our visits were not limited to just 4 visits a day =(

I know my grandpa has lived a long and happy life, But I am not ready to say goodbye!

My heart is breaking......

My heart is breaking for my friends and family of my hometown... I am proud to say I grew up in the smallest town ever, Linden Texas.. This past week has been horrible here.. I now live about ten miles from Linden..

My hometown is burning up from wildfires. It has already burnt up over 29,000 acres of land, structures and homes..

So many families have been evacuated, its very sad. It breaks my heart knowing that my hometown is going through all of this.

Our firefighters are fighting this fire day and night. Most are getting no rest at all.. I wish there was something more I could do but I did donate some supplies and that makes me feel a lil better.

WE NEED RAIN... We have needed rain for the last three months but we really NEED it now..

Cass County ( the county in Linden) has declared the county a natural disaster and are calling in bigger help then what we have now.

All we can do is pray, Pray for our firefighters, our Police and the rest of the people out there defending this fire..

Pray for rain....

Here are a few pictures of this horrible disaster going on in my home town..

Big Black Cloud........

They say that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, well I do believe he is testing me this week! Just when I think one thing is going to go good in our life, BOOOOM that big black cloud comes over our head again! Thankfully I have Jen, She is my rock. I know with her love and Gods trust we can get through this.. I think in the last 4 years we have seen more bad than we needed too. All I want is to be stress free for at least 2 days! I am not asking for a month or even forever. Just a few days!
All I can do is Pray that life will get easier for us and be thankful for the awesome lil family that Jen and I have with our kids!

If you pray, please make sure to say a lil one for us... Hoping that it all gets better soon!